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Jan 27, 2017 1415 Strahlen Smith
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I Stole a Grape and Broke the Law

“I haven’t broken the law in 20+ years.” The message was meant as a joke to a friend, and I smiled as I wrote it. even as a joke, I wanted to be truthful in what I was saying though, and I paused, mentally checking off a list, to be sure it was true before I hit send.

I paid my taxes—check. I did not throw garbage on the street—check. I certainly had not killed anybody—check.

I went through my day, starting around 5:00 a.m. I begin by snuggling into my couch, for a few minutes of “Coffee with Jesus,” reading a small piece of the Bible and journaling about what I have discovered. Too often lately, I have skipped “Coffee with Jesus” to work on other things as if they are more important or more urgent. Sometimes I get distracted by email or social media. Usually I write a Single Mom Smiling or Right Path Life Coaching blog post. “Coffee with Jesus” may not look productive, but my stress levels definitely differ when I take a few moments to remember who I am and who He is each morning. I need to make that a priority, but skipping it is not exactly breaking the law.

After that, I work on my writing, wake the boys up, make eight sandwiches for the four boys still living at home, and get them and myself off to school.

No laws broken so far. no laws broken in school. No laws broken after when I am home alone writing, life coaching, or housecleaning.

After school I run from activity to activity. I follow three different soccer teams with sons playing for varsity, JV, and town rec programs, and one football team for my son who plays for a neighboring school district. I thought of the running I do with the boys and knew that, if I am being honest, I would have to admit to breaking the law by speeding and that speeding may have more to do with my lead foot than the need to get places quickly, although timing is certainly an issue with five boys.

I amended my message to read, “Other than speeding, I haven’t broken the law in 20+ years,” and felt pretty confident as I hit send.

I have broken no major laws in 20+years, no excessive drinking, no drug use, no…I could not even imagine what other laws I might break. Honestly I live a fairly boring, normal life.

It was maybe two days later that I found myself absently strolling through our local supermarket pushing my cart up the first aisle. An open bag of grapes was in the seat where I used to place my little ones. A grape was in my mouth and another touched my lips as I thought, “I’m eating grapes, grapes I haven’t paid for.” How many I had eaten already I did not know. All I knew was that I had consumed several and obviously intended to consume several more since my hand held the evidence.

Within the next few days I noticed some disturbing realities. I do not just break the law by stealing grapes. I break the law a lot.

I thought of this as I sat in traffic behind a car waiting to make a left turn. I was first in a line of cars slowing down behind me. I could have waited patiently. I was not really in a rush, but there was also plenty of room for me to go around on the shoulder. I would go over the white line but not into anyone’s yard or anything. As I was inching carefully by the left turning car, it occurred to me that passing over the white line was also illegal.

It was not long after that that I waited at a red light. I picked up my phone, checked a text message, and whipped off a response. Granted the light was red and my phone has only been in my hand for a few quick seconds, but the point is I was texting while the car was on, technically not driving, but I was following the spirit of the law rather than the letter of the law, and I was still breaking the law.

So what? It is just a tiny grape.

It is just a little over the white line. It helped those behind me too.

It was a super-fast text while the car was stopped.

Every one of my broken laws had been rationalized. It was okay to steal grapes because they are small and insignificant. The grapes that I steal will never put a supermarket out of business. Passing the driver on the right helped everyone else behind me too. Texting at a traffic light really is not that big of a deal—it is not like I am texting and driving or anything.

It is not like any of my offenses are jail-able offenses.

Maybe what I should have written to my friend is that I have not committed a jail-able offense in the last 20+ years.

It sounded kind of pathetic when put that way. I had not committed any jail-worthy offense in 20+ years, but was that was my goal? Was not committing jail-able offenses the best I was hoping to be? Would my life be a success if only I do not go to jail? There had to be more to it than that!

Luke 16:10 says: Jesus said to his disciples: “The person who is trustworthy in very small matters is also trustworthy in great ones; and the person who is dishonest in very small matters is also dishonest in great ones. If I wanted my friends and my family to trust me, I had to be trustworthy in everything, including in little things like stolen grapes.

As a single mom struggling to teach five boys how to be strong, honorable, respectful men who love God more than they love themselves or anyone else, I had to be trustworthy in everything. They see the hypocrisy within me if I say it is okay to steal a grape but not a pineapple. They see the hypocrisy when I tell them it is okay to pass the white line on the right but not the double yellow line on the left, and my seven-year-old has pointed out that I should not be texting even when it is to one of his brothers and I am sitting in the car in our driveway!

The problem with stating something like, “I have not broken the law,” is that our laws are at best the baseline of what our moral character should be. It is not enough to say, “I haven’t broken the law,” and look for a pat on the back. Simply not breaking the law does not raise us to the level of greatness we were created to achieve.

There is more to it, and I have broken laws far greater than any that govern our land.

God’s Laws: The Two Greatest Commandments

Jesus Christ gave us only two laws (See the “Catechism of the Catholic Church”),

Love the Lord your God above all things and love your neighbor as yourself (Matthew 22:34-40).

How often have I broken these laws? How often have I made myself greater than God? How often have I fallen into temptation, wanting something desperately when I know I should put God’s plan and His timing over my desire for instant gratification? How often have I taken praise but forgotten to give thanks? How often have I put myself and others down and insulted God’s creation by forgetting that each of us is God’s beloved child?

What about the second commandment, “Love your neighbor as yourself?” How often have I failed to love? How often have I stolen someone’s dignity? How often have I dismissed my actions as I did the stolen grapes as just a little thing and scorned the hurt person as too sensitive? How often have I rolled my eyes at my mother or cut her short? How often do I parent out of fear or loneliness, cowardice, or worry rather than from a standpoint of love and strength and courage? How often have I acted hastily, said things I wish I had not, and held back things that I wish I had said? How often have I done things or missed opportunities to do things that made me want to turn back time? How often have I justified what I was doing?

Love my neighbor as myself, but how often have I truly loved myself? How often have I said that I was stupid, fat, ugly, dumb, just a mother, just a housewife, just a teacher, just a nothing, and just a nobody? How often have I put my trust in the wrong people and then blamed myself without fixing myself? How often have I repeated the same harmful patterns and expected different outcomes? How often have I refused to look at my mistakes but readily pointed fingers at others and missed the chance to grow and become the person I was created to be? How often do I put myself down and build myself up for the wrong things?

I have broken laws far greater than speeding and stolen grapes, passing vehicles, and texting while stopped.

And most of the time, I do not even realize it.

How many broken laws, like speeding, have become so natural to me that I do not even consider them to be breaking the law? How many of the laws that I break are justified because they are little things or everyone else is doing it too or because I follow the spirit or letter of the law when it suits me without following the law in its entirety?

When my goal is simply to avoid jail and to not commit jail-able offenses, I am missing the point. Love the Lord your God above all. Love your neighbor as yourself.

God the father created each and every one of us in His image, but I have broken the law in failing to remember or act as if that is true. I have been selfish. I have been hard-hearted. I have been cowardly. I have been mean and nasty, and there are times I have not even cared.

To be trustworthy in big things, we must be trustworthy in little things. That means being trusted not to eat the grapes and so much more too. It means following the only two laws that really matter,

Love the Lord your God above all things and love your neighbor as yourself. I have a lot to learn.

But I want to be trustworthy in all things. Today, all I can do is seek forgiveness for wrongs done while also seeking to do and be better, to avoid legalism while striving for trustworthiness and to always search for ways to love better, more completely, more fully, more openly, more generously.

Today, I will try harder to not break any laws.

Unfortunately, today I will probably fail again.

And today I will seek to be more thankful than ever for the forgiveness offered each of us by a God who loves us where we are.

Today, I thank God for the mercy and forgiveness Jesus offers each of us, from the most saintly to the most hardened sinner. no broken law and no law breaker is greater than the love offered to you today. I hope you join me in living the only two laws that matter more fully and for rejoicing in the love that is always available to you as well.

Love your God.

Love your neighbor.

Love yourself.

Seek forgiveness and know you receive it.

Act in love in all things big and small.

God bless.

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Strahlen Smith

Strahlen Smith is a single mom of five boys. Smith hopes to reach out to other divorced and hurting Catholics and let them know there is Hope and Love in the Catholic Church. Today, she and her five sons work hard for everything that comes their way, but they are also successful, happy, and faithful. They enjoy camping, sports, and (highly competitive) board games. Check out more of their story at www.SingleMomSmiling.com. Reprinted with permission.

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