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Oct 14, 2024 44 Deacon Steve L. Curry
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From Prison to Pulpit

Appreciation…we seek it from so many places, but Deacon Steve is in search of it from a unique place.

It was my sister’s wedding day. I came out of my closet after a three-week coop up looking like a skeleton, almost half-dead. I had been away from home for about six months, caught in a web of repeated drug usage and self-destruction. That evening, after an eternity of separation from my family, I spent time with my father, my cousin, and some of my brothers. 

I missed the love that we had as a family. I didn’t realize how much I needed that, so I spent a couple of days there, getting to know them all over again. My heart started yearning for more of it. I remember begging God so many times to save me from the life that I had entered into, the life that I had chosen. But when you get sucked into drug culture, it can be really hard to find your way out of that darkness.

Despite trying, I kept sinking downward. I would sometimes come home covered in blood from fighting; I was even put behind bars several times either for fighting or drinking too much. One day I hurt somebody really bad and ended up in prison for aggravated assault. When I came out of prison a year later I really wanted to break this cycle of violence.

One Step after Another

I earnestly started trying to change. Moving from Dallas to East Texas was a first step. It was hard to find a job there, so I ended up going to Las Vegas. After a week-long search, I started subcontracting as a carpenter. One Christmas day, I was going through the middle of a desert. We had a huge generator about the size of a semi-trailer. I fired it up, and started working out there…I was the only person in the desert. Driving every single nail in, I could hear that sound echoing for miles. It was so eerie, being there alone in the desert when the rest of the world was celebrating Christmas. I wondered how I could have just forgotten how important this day was to me. I spent the rest of the evening just reflecting on what it meant for God to have come into our world—to save humanity. 

When Easter came around, I went to church for the first time in a really long while. Since I was late, I had to stand outside the Church, but I felt this deep hunger for what God wanted to give me. After church, I returned to Texas, went to a bar, and danced with a young lady. When she offered to take me home to spend the night though, I refused. As I drove back my mind was racing. What really happened to me? I never turned down any opportunities that came my way. Something changed that evening. I started to have this growing hunger, and God began to do some pretty amazing things in my life. He got my attention and I made a decision that I wanted to go back to Church. 

I went to the local Catholic church for Confession for the first time in at least 15 years. I was living with a married woman at the time, still using drugs, getting drunk on weekends, and all the like. To my utter surprise, the priest heard my Confession and said that I needed to repent. This offended me because I was expecting him to tell me that Jesus loves me anyway. 

Soon after, this woman left me for her husband, and this shattered me. I recalled the words of the priest and came to the realization that my sexual impurity was something that was keeping me away from an intimate relationship with God. So one Sunday morning, I went to the cathedral in Tyler. Father Joe was standing out there on the front porch. I told him I had been away from the Church for 20 years, and that I would like to go to Confession and start coming back to Mass. I made an appointment with him for Confession. It lasted for about two hours, and I poured my heart out.

Fire that Spreads

In my first year back in the Church, I read the Bible from front to back twice. My heart was on fire. Attending the RCIA program, and reading the books by church fathers, I got very immersed in learning as much as I could about the Catholic faith. The more I learned the more I fell in love with the way God built His Church and gave it to us as a means of coming to know Him, love Him, and serve Him better in this life so that we can spend all of eternity with Him in Heaven. 

My dad had retired early. He had been very successful, working for a computer company in Dallas. So when he retired, he began his retirement life at a local bar in Dallas. Slowly, as he realized what he was doing to himself and saw the changes happening in my life, he too moved out of Dallas. He began recommitting himself to his Catholic faith and one day, he lovingly told me: “I’m proud of you my son.” 

That’s what I want to hear when I die and face judgment. I want to hear my Heavenly Father say the same thing: “I’m so proud of you.”

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Deacon Steve L. Curry

Deacon Steve L. Curry is a permanent Deacon who has been ordained for over 15 years now.

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